http://www.bbc.com/news/health-34039054
This is how my brain has worked as long as I can remember. It’s neat to learn that there’s finally some research on the subject 🙂
And here’s a well-written first-hand account of aphantasia (although the author’s experience differs from mine; I have plenty of mental audio, and to some extent other senses):
I have never visualized anything in my entire life. I can’t “see” my father’s face or a bouncing blue ball, my childhood bedroom or the run I went on ten minutes ago. I thought “counting sheep” was a metaphor. I’m 30 years old and I never knew a human could do any of this. And it is blowing my goddamned mind.If you tell me to imagine a beach, I ruminate on the “concept” of a beach. I know there’s sand. I know there’s water. I know there’s a sun, maybe a lifeguard. I know facts about beaches. I know a beach when I see it, and I can do verbal gymnastics with the word itself.But I cannot flash to beaches I’ve visited…I have no capacity to create any kind of mental image of a beach, whether I close my eyes or open them, whether I’m reading the word in a book or concentrating on the idea for hours at a time—or whether I’m standing on the beach itself.
Wow, this is fascinating. I have a vivid internal experience-synthesizer, and it never occurred to me that this was a completely optional accessory to the human package. On the other hand, I barely encode biographical lived-experience into memory at all, and I’ve met people who literally remember everything they’ve ever done in minute detail. Ain’t neurodiversity grand. 🙂